Faithful

I'm not sure why I've be blessed with remarkable people as friends. I really don't. I don't feel deserving of their friendship, because so much of the time I feel like I take and have basically nothing to give, nothing to even offer. My friend Gina is one of those remarkable people. This woman and her whole family reached out to us when we first moved to Lakewood. They brought us dinner, and our house was full of boxes. Her youngest and my oldest were in the same kids class at church, and I was immediately drawn to her beautiful spirit. So gentle, so authentic, so joyful. I really think that God's beauty has so consumed her life that she was actually more beautiful on the outside too. We got to know each other more and more, and I was so inspired by her steadfastness. We connected on other things too, like eating well, being well, essential oils, clothes, tacos :) Gina and her husband adopted all three of their girls, so of course we connected in that way since I worked in adoptions. Their stories were all so incredible--stories of faith, stories of God's provision poured out for the two of them. Well, Gina's story of God's provision isn't over.

A few months ago, Gina was diagnosed with breast cancer. When she told me, I was in shock. One of the healthiest people I know--she ran marathons, was fit, into the natural stuff--she had breast cancer. It didn't make any sense to me. I think my mind couldn't make sense of it, and only considered the "health" aspect because recently I've been so consumed with eating healthy, getting toxins out of our house, etc. But my assumptions, which were clearly wrong and ignorant, turned into deep sadness. Why cancer, Lord? Why Gina?

We had an incredible conversation before she went for her first week of treatment. After much research, prayer and seeking God's wisdom, Gina found a different path to pursue treatment of this cancer. Of course it isn't covered by insurance, but they were still going to do it--somehow, God would provide.

Gina travels every week to Arizona for her treatment. After a handful of days she travels back to be at home with her beautiful family. The weight of the travel each week, of feeling tired and fatigued, hair loss, etc. would be too much for anyone. Here's the remarkable part--in every struggle I have witnessed remarkable faith. In her small little body, the faith that moves mountains and heals, the faith that leads others back to God--that faith, oozes out of her. When I look at Gina, I see incredible endurance, strength and a steadfast spirit that praises the Lord, no matter the circumstance. That to me is utterly remarkable. And it's not that she hasn't cried, that she hasn't felt defeat, or like her body can't keep up 100% of the time. She's human. But hear me, her faith is awesome. 

I don't naturally have faith like that. I don't. When a crappy situation comes, my initial reaction is to be angry at God. To question His will, His intentions. But I am a learner, and Gina--whether she knows it or not (she will after I post this :) has taught me that God is good amidst the storm. I have grown a lot in the past couple of years, and my realization of that is tangible because I'm staring at that phrase "God is good" and I feel it in my body. God is good, period. I don't have answers for the struggles we face in this world. But dear Jesus, you. are. good. 

People have really come around the Reeves family to support them, but the thing they're needing right now is financial support. Check out her story here. God is good, and he will supply my beautiful friend and her family with all that they need. I believe that 100%. 

This song just came on my Pandora station, and wow, I think it so appropriate.

You are faithful, God you are faithful.

Thank you Lord, for this incredible person you've put in my life. And I thank you even more that her faith is so powerful, it has taught me and sparked the desire in me to be closer to You, Jesus. Heal your daughter, Gina. Refresh her spirit, bring sustaining energy and rest to her family. Love her precious little girls as they process this and walk through their own struggles in seeing their mommy fight for healing. Give Paul endurance, strength, wisdom, and love as he faithfully supports his wife. And Lord, may you continue to be praised. You are faithful. You are good. In Jesus name, Amen.